so i guess you could say

 things are starting to

 come together.

my grades are finally coming back up... im ranked 59th in my class out for 526, so i guess thats pritty good. ive also been getting letters from different colleges and what not. last week i got some from miami, drake, tcu, lsu, michigan, iowa state and some others...

ive also been talkin to someone that makes me extremely happy. and the best part is, we'er extremely compatable, i mean its a no brainer... im just hopin we can make it all work out, b/c shes extremely worth it, and everything im lookin for. shes smart, funny, extremely beautiful, down to earth, and doesnt care what other people say or think... thats like my perfect girl.

baseballs tryouts start on the 27th.. im pritty pumped and i think i have a good chance at V this year. And if i dont make V, i know ill atleast swing, which is fine w/ me b/c j.v. is funner than shit, specially since thats where all my friends are gunna be. i really cant wait to start up again, ive been itchin to start playin ever since i got better 4rm my injury... and ive been practicin... it looks like i still got it....

so it really does look like everythings coming together

thanks to the decisions im making and to a special someone... 

:::dickster:::

Currently Listening Morning View By Incubus see related

So pardon me while I burst into flames
I've had enough of the world
And it's people's mindless games
So pardon me while I burn
And rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me
I'll never be the same...

There's something about the look in your eyes
Something I noticed when the light was just right
It reminded me twice that I was alive
And it reminded me that you're so worth the fight

so i learned 1st hand that shit happens... n u just gotta deal w/ it. thats just sometimes how life goes unfortunatly... but then it gives u more of a reason to put up a fite. i WILL NOT quit. shits been kinda gay lately. baseballs goin pritty good actually, i really think i have a decent shot at varsity if i dont screw up... had my ultrasound for my kidney 2day... its not lookin 2 good, but im strait. my grades came back up im pritty pumped about that. i havent been up to much lately, just been chillin w/ the regulars havin fun w/ them. i got 1 more day of tests and then im off the hook, hopefully all that goes well. and lately ive been thinkin, ive made 1 too many mistakes and theres a chance that im gonna pay dearly for them. i dont intentionally do all this. i just dont use my head. i regret alotta things ive done... and to whom it may concern... i am truly sorry (i hope you know that)

but ya thats bout it for me

leave some comments

im melting, im melting in your eyes i lost my place. could stay a while. and im melting in your eyes like my first time that i caught fire. just stay with me lay with me now.

:: we're 2 of a kind and no one will ever change that ::

dddrew

Currently Listening Hidden in Plain View By Hidden in Plain View see related

some things i can honestly say make absolutly no sense to me

-i dont understand why i try so hard for something thats never going to happen-

...sometimes i just think i wanna give up...

sooo... nothins really new, same old same old. gettin bak heavy into baseball... im not gunna complain there im pritty pumped about it. it keeps my mind off alotta things... :o/

im really startin to lose sight of everything i once new and had a grasp on. my school work is down the tubes, my baseball... idk im still doin good but not as good as i use to be. things are just so confusing these days and frankly i dont like. girls, school, family, sports... everything, i dont understand it what so ever nemore. this week has sucked lol and its only tuesday... im already short on sleep, ppl are drivin me up the wall... im freakin out man!

but on better news.. i went to the dentist 2day and for the first time in history i didnt have a cavity! doesnt get much better than that, im not gunna lie lol.

i need an escape from some of this... just even for a dayyyy someone plz help me blah...

leave some comments slackers...

love errybody

dddrew

i just need somewhere to fit in...

a sense of belonging

Currently Listening When Broken Is Easily Fixed By Silverstein Smashed Into Pieces see related

When we met you said we were the same, you know
that we're different, we're different,
and all the times you promised me that everything would
work out in the end, you were gravely mistaken

And if my lungs still let me breathe,
would you be there for me.
If I can make myself believe,
I'll give you back what you took away.

I will promise myself I won't care
distracting myself from your stare
and I've seen this mistake once before
with your games I will never fall for

well im not gunna lie... im slowly goin 2 my downfall. this week has sucked incredibly bad. it started monday. the day was alright i guess and then baseball strolled around. we hadda run stairs and well i fucked my knee up... B.A.D. then right after i got picked to run the 400 for the baseball team b/c im one of the fastest. around the 1st corner both my calves cramped up. and now today it still hurts to walk on em. tuesday my alarm clock didnt go off. so i had 10 minutes to take a shower and get ready then leave. then i get to baseball and my coach changes how i throw... well ha my elbows pritty much gone now. wednesday i find out im failing what is it... 3 fuckin classes! 4.0 first semester to failing 3 classes...? does that make sense 2 u, b/c it doesnt at all to me. and then today i had baseball 4rm 6-6:30 this morning... well my elbow hurt even more than tuesday.. and well then i gotta hit from 6:30-7 when i could barely hold the bat. and then go right into zero hour agility drills after that. this is seriously friggen gay. im not even shur i like it so much nemore. everything just seems so pointless now. i honestly have no idea what imma do. i do know that i just wanna roll over n die... ughhhhhh

sorry bout all this bitchin guys...

keep the comments comin...

signed_dazedandconfused

Currently Listening In Love and Death By The Used I Caught Fire (In Your Eyes) see related

Seemed to stop my breath
My head on your chest
Waiting to cave in
From the bottom of my...
Hear your voice again
Could we dim the sun
And wonder where we've been
Maybe you and me
So kiss me like you did
My heart stopped beating
Such a softer sin

You could stay and watch me fall
And of course I'll ask for help
Just stay with me now
Take my hand
We could take our heads off
stay in bed just make love that's all
Just stay with me now

Never caught my breath
Every second I'm without you I'm a mess
Ever know each other
Trust these words are stones
why cuts aren't healing
Learning how to love

so sorry for not updating, things have been... a lil on the odd side. so this week was kinda prityt much gay. schools school u know and then friday the day ive been waiting for since schools even started... i get SICK  god damn it... we played bellevue west... and well we won, but since i was SICK  i cant do annything at all. how friggen gay is that?! ugh im still pissed off bout it. and ya so errybody came over friday night and we just chilled u know, then tim went home w/ john so me tony n derek chilled played a lil xbox u know.. then tony left for work saturday morning and then me n derek just chilled here. ya he thinks he can be a kobes steak house chef... ya friggen right, that kid was flippin bananas all over the place tryin to make em in my mouth... that didnt work out very well my dog got most of em. so ya then i went 2 the mall chilled there for an hour n a half then tim n meghan came over and we just chilled for a while then left for tims and spent the night there. then toooooooday woke up left tims got sum tite ass kicks im not gonna lie. ya and im here now, pritty basic weekend u know, but ya things have been kinda just weird lately, idk what imma do but hey w/e life throws me a curveball boo friggedy hoo. all i gotta do is dick that pitch outta the park fa sho. hope everybody had a good week/ weekend... love errybody

keep the comments coming, they're wicked bad slowin down... 11 aint cuttin it.

peace n love... dddrew

I'm melting
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me